Wawa

2005 Closure

2006-01-15T09:50:00.000+08:00

OMG... when was my last entry?

Well well well.. here's my 2005 closure.

Sucky, Funny, Bitchy, Annoying...

From course co-ordinator -> merchandising asst -> bank marketing officer (I dont make phonecalls and sells.. I'm a leads administrator if you know what the hell is that.) Environment change, but cool still.

Slack most of the time in the year with different bunch of people. Different gossips and stuffz. And kinda sick of all these though.

My closing words: Grab whatever chance you have and do your best in it, treasure it. Dont bitch too much about others, your mouth might rot one of these days. Dont be tooN narrow minded and become a Mr know-it-all. Last but not least, GROW UP PLEASE! You all are adults but behaving like kids. (I admit I'm one too.) So.. let's grow up in 2006.

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Listening to Niji... well... just some thoughts. Has seated through a number of jamming with different bands with zw. And.... seriously speaking I miss the days he jammed in GeneXis and the DJ Dream. Love the songs they played and love how the way they jam. And I would say the choice of songs do helped alot in improving zw's range. And can make him stand out and do what he can do best. But at the same time, the rest of the members can shine off as well.. I miss the days listening to Niji, Nepenthes, One, Oh Japan, Scars -Asian Beat Final Version- and Unfalter. Though my heart nearly dropped out at every gigs he sang in for the above songs. (coz of the pitching in high notes.) But well.. he pulled it through nicely.

Well.. those were the days in... 2004 and 2005.

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Miss the 2001 days after the first cosplay... all the waiting outside heeren for the rest on weekends. Cocking session in Bishan Coffeebean. Those were the days...

Miss the days in poly... getting the best seats in the canteen and hunt for eye-candies. Lol... Those were the days.

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Well... some wishlist of 2006 and let's see how many I get full-filled by the end of the year:
(all auth items)
1. Vivienne Westwood Necklace - still deciding which design though
2. Vivienne Westwood Wallet or a bag
3. A bag for work - LV? Coach? Or Chanel?
4. A Gaming Desktop
5. PS3
6. Baby's Parasol
7. Start my degree in Finance

So much for now. hmm... i'm materialistic! LOL!

Well...

2005-10-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

Well.. it's been sometimes since i on my msn or surf net, probably becoz I'm tired after work and my eyes need to take a break from the monitor.

Job load is increasing recently and there are tonnes of deadline to meet daily. I cant afford to fall sick or take leave coz my absent will affect lots of people, half of the team I guess.

Though work is stressful, but I do feel good about it. I feel important and not wasting my time hanging around to wait for knock off.

Well, my energy is pretty taken up by work and dont have much brain cell left for other things. Maybe just becoz I am not determine enough.

Well, shall order my shoes soon so that I can start on costumes soon. *grin*

Ermm...

2005-08-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

Well, today is monday, and I'm down with cough, took half day mc.

Pretty glad that I didnt go to Natsu Matsuri this year, coz I read from elsewhere that there were cosplayers/crossdressers... Well, all I can say is that Natsu Matsuri is a traditional festival and definately not for this kinda stuffz. No respect for the culture. That's bad.

Went to the gig yesterday, well, I was pretty pissed, and to all your disappointment, I wasnt pissed off by my dude and neither did we quarrel. Sorry people, we didnt quarrel as you wish. Regarding what I was pissed about and the overall gig review, I shall blog abt it some other time, to prevent for being too straight forward.

Happy Birthday!

2005-08-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

My Brownie girl just turned Mother! Yup, 3 mins ago she has just given birth to her first baby.

And... I'm alone at home.. kinda panic... wondering how many is she going to have...

Weet u Weet~

2005-07-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

Natsu Matsuri is coming! WOohoo~~~ deary and I have placed the order for tickets~ And I'm browsing some site now, planning to get a nice yukata for it. Found a lovely set which cost only 8600 yen! But wondering if could reach SG in time, if not, shall just get one from the bugis junction shop then.

Hmmm... update tml~ lovey dovey mood. My deary is the best! =p~

Bear with me for alittle while

2005-07-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

Please bear with me for alittle while.

I'm depress...

Guys like beautiful things right? Such as beautiful women, right?

I dont understand, am I plain stupid or something? When I'm attach, I hardly talk to anyone through msn, except for friends, and I hardly add people too. Perhaps it's just because I'm not socialble. Or perhaps because no one really wana msg me in the msn. As time goes by, I hardly log on to my msn as I realised that no one will actually msg me.

The only friend that I still hang around with sometimes is Lester. Other than him, no one else.

I'm sad. Coz I just realised that life isnt as 'secure' as I think. I have pretty low confident, I need constant assurence. I lack of security easily.

I dont know, I'm crying my heart out. I know I'm just thinking too much. But like what I've mentioned before, alot of girls now are 'dirt-cheap', with super duper cutey face and figure. Old and lazy ppl like me can never fight them off.

Why cant Da Mo Wang just leave me alone for once?

2005-07-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

Oops, I've got the job~

Finally I'm not underpaid anymore. Reasonable amount. Starting work on monday, millenia tower. I'm gonna work in Citibank, as leads administrator. 5 day ww. Phew~

Not enough time to sew anything for cosfest.. nothing to wear.. gotta dig back old stuffz yeah. lol~

2005-07-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

Haiz~

I quitted my job which has just been mentioned in the previous post. Why? Coz of the environment. The younger generations (20s) are all Malaysian, and senior merchandiser and other staffz in other departments are aunties. They speak bad English, poor Mandarin and poor Cantonese. How to communicate with them? And it's just boring to have lunch with them. They'll talk about yesterday's tv show. (For god's sake, I dont watch local channels except Desperate housewife. Alright, and SI and alittle big of that superstar thingy, but stopped coz it's not nice at all. -_-)

And, seriously, I'm really afraid that I'll talk like them one day. They demand OT everyday! 5 and a half day plus OT everyday including saturday, way underpaid for a diploma holder.

I know diploma is nothing, but at least I'll be happier working with more Singaporeans. Aarrgghhzz..

Well, I've gotta admit that it's hard to do everything myself. Hence, I'm sincerely seeking out people who's full of ideas and have great interest in the following style: different type of lolitas, visual kinda..etc If you are, kindly drop me a email @ iamwawa@gmail.com

2005-06-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

Yes, here I am updating my blog.

On mc due to a bad tummy ache which made me puke. Gonna pop out to see the doc before going out to meet zw.

I have not been online and simply using internet for leisure for nearly a week. Kinda good feeling though. Workload is getting heavier, more and more sample job sheet and ordering of trims is to be done.

Everyday OT, good and bad. After I reached home, still gotta take care of the wholesale/retail thingy.

Just went through a couple of blogs despite Hyde's english piercing through my ears.

Well, the world is ever changing, and I realised that the 'in' blog is no longer the snowy but the spg thingy. Well Well Well... I even see people around me idolising her or ever feel that she's smart?!

Well, being straight forward and stuffz doesnt make anyone smart.
Anyway, some really 'impressive' blog I would say would be the two named above, the teens for sale bloggy and finally the retarded bloggy.

'Impressive' in... ermm.. not a good way. But of course, entertaining.

I realised that after 1 week + in the company, I feel old.

But yet, I'm super duper emotional, I was crying like I've lost my beloved doggy yesterday after I finally have the courage to finish reading Paradise Kiss. I'm really a sucker for Ai Yazawa's manga. I cried and cried when I was reading Nana, Last Quarter, Wo Bu Shi Tian Shi and Paradise Kiss.

Haiz... Love love love... It's so torturing~~~ I love 阿伸! 喬治! 亞當! AARRGGHHZZ~~~

A job at last.

2005-06-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

Went for an interview this morning and ta da~ got the job. Starting work tomorrow.

It's a garment company, gona work as Asst. Merchandiser. Something that I wanted to study about, and thank God that I actually got this job despite having only one month experience in Gap as Temp Merchandising Asst. According to the manager, the company manufacture coats for well known brand. And my merchandiser (i'm just the asst), is in-charge of brands like COACH and Ralph Lauren, I'll be handling mainly the process of getting the sample spec and get it done.

Somehow, I find that I'm pretty lucky with job. Back then when I was still studying, I always got the job from company/field that I like. Just like my previous job in the music school, I always wanted to work in a comtempory music school to learn about, as I know that the school is not just a school, but it's a place where I could get to widen my connection and knowledge.

Time for some ranting yeah. Since it's a 5 and a half day job, I wont be able to hang out too late and stuffz. But it's good in some way, as I can start my vocal class soon, and gona follow my mom to take up Cantonese opera lesson.

Can someone please define "the scene"? To me, when I use the word "the scene", it's often refer to the Jrock group, people who played JRock (VK or main stream). And I really dont understand why some can talk bad abt group A but yet the person is still hanging with group A. Contradicting huh? Or perhaps he/she thinks that he/she knows it all.

Well well well, if one wana stand up for justice(lol) or wana stand up for others, I always believe in doing it right in front of the person/group, instead of talking behind people's back. Backstabbing is bad.

Just some random thoughts

2005-06-13T12:33:00.000+08:00

Bored, as usual.

What am I doing nowadays? Quitted my job and now searching for a job high and low. Borrowed some books to prepare myself for an accounting course next year. After this book, will be revising and upgrading myself on some programming.

And will soon resume my vocal and drum class(hopefully soon~~~) and gonna start on pop and jazz piano(this is a killer!).

Currently still looking for suitable wholesaler and started an auction for apparels.

Sounds like I'm a busy person. Why I ventured out into so many thingy at a time? Why am I picking up new skills?

Coz.. simply, I do not wana waste my time and do not wana just talk without action.

I still do like music and I'm constantly upgrading myself, even though it's just a hobbies to me at the moment. Why? I believe that with just "talk", it'll make you no where. Not only one needs luck and opportunity, he/she needs the skills too.

Like what one of the instructors have said (during one of our conversation), chinese pop nowadays is getting more and more boring. Coz, there're too many wannabees out there. And too many people who call themselves "composer" out there.

Yes, one might have the talent, but I still believe that he/she needs theory and skills to back up his/her talent.

Just a word of advise, if you are a vocalists, get yourself a good and proper vocal instructor to really train on the basic breathing and projection of voice. If you need recommendation of instructor, drop me a msg.

I'm still trying to get a experienced instructor for keyboards/pop piano as it is different from what I've been learning (classical). Coz I would like to learn more about different improvisation of chords, etc.

Alright, time for me to get back and do my auction stuffz, rather than like some people who hides behind the computer and do "research" on everybody's blogs.

Anyway, HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY DEARY!!!

I'm lazy!

2005-06-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

It's been a long long time since I last updated. I dont know, dont feel like talking.

Lol~

Ermm.. D'J Party. Seriously speaking, I didnt pay much attention to the music despite its loudness. Somehow, I'm pretty good in shutting my ears. *I can sleep well in jamming room.

Ok, so not much comments about the music. I've read alot of comments on the music and bands from other people's blogs and forum, seems pretty good. Out of curiousity, I listened to the mp3 of a few bands.

Ermm.. Honesty is what I believe in, even though some are my friends. And I would say that, what I heard doesnt sound like what some of the comments have described. I cant judge much on the music, coz I aint a guitarist, bassist, drummer... I have never learn any of these instruments in my life. And 95% of the songs played on that day by the bands are "stranger" to me. I'm not updated about Jrock.

You may say that I'm biased, but yes, the only band that I've really listened/pay attention to is the closing band.

Anyway, it's pretty much of an eye-opener for me, coz I've finally heard(without paying attention)/watched some of the "legendary" bands.

Oh, not to forget the special guest. This was the very first time I see in person for the past one year. (TV, newspaper and magazine doesnt count).

Bored...

2005-05-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

Bored, need to take a break, hence it's quiz time! For you to know me better~

Your Gothic... Maybe even a bit Vampyric... Your
very sensitive, sometimes you can be outgoing
in your own population. Your sometimes Lonely,
but when your alone your much happier. If your
suicidal, it's okay, because your the kewlest
person I know!....well don't actually know you
but yeah! Write me and Tell Me if you picked
Napoleon or Ron!

Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
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You are a water girl. You are flexable and very
nice. You are quiet so people who don't know
you thnk you are weird or just mean and high
and mighty like. You aren't though. You like
to have a good time and you also just like to
relax and just enjoy the stars.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.

What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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You kill for
revenge.
That is because you have lost something or
someone you held very dear. Now you can't seem
to get over the loss that marked your soul, and
the only solution is to go after the one person
who brought all this pain to you. Chances are
you are angry inside and you bottle everything
up and don't talk to anyone about it. People
may want to help, but you think that they can
never understand your pain and only get
frustrated because of this. But it is important
to see all that you have left and be thankful
of that even if you have lost something great.
It may not be true that Times heals all wounds,
but with time and talking about your feelings,
maybe the hurt will ease.

Main weapon: Yourself
Quote: "You can close your eyes to
reality but not to memories" -Stainslaw J.
Lec
Facial expression: Gritted teeth and
teary eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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Omg! Last minute again!

2005-05-19T20:28:00.000+08:00

OMG! Last minute again...

Yup, while writing down today's date, I realised that today is the 19th May!!! Freak!!!!!!!! And I still havent plan what I gonna wear for Cosfest.. not to mention street fest~ lol~~

Somehow, I'm kinda used to this last minute thingy. I will only decide on my image.. erm.. 1 to 2 weeks before the event. Get the material 3 days before the event and my mom will gotta sew for me in... less than 12 hours or less than 3 days. :p

Yup, I'm such a badie!!! hahaha...

To me, shoes are very important. And I dont have shoes now!!! How to decide on image? Sob!!! I mean, the pair that I want will not be able to reach SG by then. Aarrgghhzz... seems that stuffz will take years to reach SG from Japan coz of the stupid money order. Cant they just accept CC?! aarrgghhzz

Anyway, my brain is gona burst soon! and my blings blings are all growing wings! -_-

Gonna take a look at the Topshop sales on Sat. Need to get either the Philips 10 in 1, or VS Ceramic Straightener, or going down to Kimage and get the professional one... since the CHI from folic cost SGD300+ and I'm kinda tight now. -_-

Freak.. gotta trim my brows, get my Dr marten... aarrgghhzz.. juz the marten alone cost around SGD215. I can buy 2 pairs from double decker with the same amt and even more from HK! Aarrgghhzz.. nvm, coz it's Dr Marten~ =p

Just bought some mask from TFS, coz girls from a forum have been raving about it. Freak... gotta list down a list of cosmetics and skin care stuffz to get during GSS. Strange that I'm getting cosmetics coz I aint a make up kinda girl. But.. what to do? Need make up for cosplay and GL. -_-

Next, going to be on diet from today onwards for DJ party... coz I dont wana be a pig there. Anyway, I doubt I'll be doing EGL/Sweet Loli unless there's a pair from BTSSB or Meta suddenly selling in SG, coz my expectation of shoes is rather.. high.

Whatever... I look forward to the gig. I dont know, but I think it's gona be "interesting". And.. shit!!!! I dont wana be there alone!!!!!! aarrgghhzz!!!!!~~~~~~~ help.. someone please meet me at DJ Party.. SOB SOB SOB >>>>_<<<<

YEEEK!!!!

2005-05-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

Woot! Have lunch with Deary at Ajisen Bugis. Walked around abit. Pretty disappointed with the Mickey shop... the stuffz are dirt cheap, and I guess very soon, lots of sec sch kids will be wearing them. Aarrgghhzz... common again~

Busy busy busy!!! My brain is gonna break down soon. Gotta rush my name card design soon, and get myself to Amoy street. Well well well, the place is freaking near to Ann Siang Hill.. aarrgghhzz!

I'm alittle too crazy to talk now. I'm stress. Yup, very stress... aarrgghhzz

Wow!

2005-05-17T20:02:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-05-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

Your brain: 60% interpersonal, 100% visual, 40% verbal, and 200% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 54% on interpersonal

You scored higher than 65% on visual

You scored higher than 42% on verbal

You scored higher than 98% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on OkCupid Free Online Dating

I'm bored!!!

2005-05-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 27

Your birth on the 27th day of the month (9 energy) adds a tone of selflessness and humanitarianism to your life path.
Certainly, you are one who can work very well with people, but at the same time you need a good bit of time to be by yourself to rest and meditate.
There is a very humanistic and philanthropic approach in most of things that you do.

This birthday helps you be broadminded, tolerant, generous and very cooperative.
You are the type of person who uses persuasion rather than force to achieve your ends.
You tend to be very sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you able to give much in the way of friendship without expecting a lot in return.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Ermm.. didnt know I'm that Female!!! Hoo Hoo.. LOL!!!

stolen~

2005-05-15T09:03:00.000+08:00

You scored as Romanticist. Romanticism encourages society to look backwards to find our solutions. Your rationale is that things were much better a few hundred years ago so we should thus look back to those times and replace them in our modern society. You believe in a simple life and that the complexities of the modern world have turned it upside down.

Romanticist

88%

Fundamentalist

69%

Existentialist

50%

Postmodernist

50%

Cultural Creative

50%

Materialist

44%

Idealist

44%

Modernist

38%

Friday the 13th!

2005-05-13T12:45:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~~

Friday the 13th! Wondering how unlucky would I be today?

Today's also "our" 11th month 'anniversay'~ :D

Somehow I'm lazy to update my blog... would update later today or tonight... :p

I'm gonna be crazy soon.

2005-05-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

Yes... I'm gona be crazy soon.

I hate my boss. I'm freaking tired.

I need a break badly and urgently.

Please stop nagging at me. My ears are tired.

My brain is gona burst soon.

Please don't disturb me/ talk to me unnecessarily. Thanks.

Woot~

2005-04-28T19:08:00.000+08:00

Lets see...

Tuesday:
Woohoo~~~ somehow a dream came true. Remember the song Guan Huai Fang Shi? It's sang by Chan Han Wei and Cai Li Lian. It was very pop when I was in pri 5 or 6... everyone knows how to sing it. Coincidentally, Cai Li Lian is my senior as she was from the same secondary school. So... as there's a Xin Yao concert coming this sat, Cai Li Lian came to my school to practise with others. And she sang the song!!!

Hmmm.. it's like a dream come true... hearing the song (which brings back lots of pri sch days memories) and hearing it LIVE by the Original singer! Woohoo~~~

Wednesday:
While I was on my way to meet deary, listened to 93.3 and the Dj was talking about a sms contest to win tickets to a seminar by Fang Wen Shan & David Tao. Decided to try my luck and hence sent in a sms stating the reason of why I wana be there... Hours later I received a sms from 93.3 that I won the tickets! Unfortunately, deary cant take off this sat to go. And hence, I'm going with Anna this sat... the first person which I can think of~ :D

While I was half way falling asleep (coz doing some music scores using Encore) in the office, Maia came... she chatted with my boss and went down for coffee... and my boss left his phone with me, ended up running around for him to pass him back his phone.. -_-

Today:
Hoho~~~ bought lots of stuffz from L'oreal sales... anyhow buy.. lol~~ and now, I'm waiting for time to fly so that I can meet deary and home sweet home... :D

Btw, God listened to our prayers!!! Wenjie is recovering fast I guess... talked to him alittle on deary's phone yesterday. But we must still continue to pray for him ok? :D

2005-04-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

It's time for me to change my blog skin. But I'm not gonna do so soon.

I'm wondering what does all these mean. Am I the one that's changing? Or both of us?

I don't know... I guess I'm really a bad girlfriend like what he said.

I might be over sensitive, but at least I'm sensitive. But still... I don't know what's going on.

Isn't things going fine? Going stable? Why?

Sign off with tears.

Aaarrgghhzz.. I'm sick!

2005-04-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. Still recovering...

I was having a fever of 37.7 degree on thurs afternoon. After popping 2 panadols and covering myself with blankets to sweat for awhile, I felt slightly better, and hence headed off to work with deary. Ate chicken rice for lunch...
work till around 6pm when my boss came.. I began to feel super duper weak. After struggling for some time, I told my boss I need to go home. While I was just 3 bus stops away from home, I have the urge to puke and I quickly run to the driver... (luckily the bus was stopping for traffic light and it was on the 2nd lane). I told him," Can you please open the door coz I wana vomit?" He said something but I didnt catch it and opened the door. I dashed out and puke... puke out all the chicken rice...... -_- and after cleaning up myself alittle, I walked home...

Bathed and stuffz, and while lying on my bed, I measured my temperature... the numbers on the thermonmeter shot up to 39.something and I thought it was spoiled coz I dropped it in the afternoon. Coz I couldnt eat as i'll puke, I sleep sleep sleep..

I woke up and needed my mom to helped me on my way to the clinic.. I guess fever is quite a common illness recently as the doc gave me an expression after I told her I've got fever. After checking up, she checked my temperature... and it was 39 degrees... so.. my thermonmeter wasnt spoil. -_- I was told that apart from my high fever, I've got gastric flu too...

Sleep through the whole day... while one of my 2 boss seems like he don't believe I was sick... freak... decided to go out with my mom at night. But I was just too sick.. giddy spells have been on me since thurs and the furthest I could go was just a nearby bus stop, and needed mom to help me home. Puke again like there's no tomorrow. I cant even drink water, coz I'll puke the moment I see water too. Went to the clinic again and this time the doc gave me a jab.. well... I'm not scare of injection at all, and was hoping that it'll really help. But... the jab doesn't seem to be working... -_-

sleep sleep sleep.... and sat morning was torturing... cant eat and puke again... haiz... only until afternoon I was slightly better... and able to go out.

Anyway, I'm still feeling super duper giddy now. And I strained my stomach muscle while trying to vomit.. hence.. it hurts like hell when I breathe, walk, talk, sneeze, sleep, lying down..etc.. -_-

Last but not least, no matter what religion you are in, can you do me a favour?
Please pray for my friend Wenjie who's in hospital right now.

Anyway, I'm too giddy to continue typing now...

2005-04-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

While waiting for deary... something stolen from him.. lol~

HREE NAMES YOU GO BY: Wawa, Vivien, Xiao Ning.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF: Being short... lazy... stomach cramp~ aarrgghhzz

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: food, computer, music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: Australia Movie World Daffy Duck Tee, Levis 599, slippers

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS PRESENTLY:
- Jacky Zhang Xue You -> Wo Zhen De Shou Shang Le
- Liang Jin Ru -> Yan Wei Die
- Zhang Dong Liang - Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- play drum
- sing in front of everybody
- yoga

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEALS TO YOU:
- brain, i cant stand guy who talks to me with their dicks and not their brains.
- presentable look
- humurous

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
- play any string instrument
- be a vocalist
- play guitar freak.. lol

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- sing
- play piano
- gaming

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REAL BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- go ktv
- shop
- go arcade

THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
- accountant
- software engineer
- get a job in the entertainment/music industry

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- Hk & Macau (back to my home~)
- Europe
- Shanghai + Taiwan (=p)

THREE KIDS NAMES:
- Claire
- Aloysius (aiyah forgot how to spell... lol)
- Vivienne (same as me, just different spelling)

3 Most Visited Websites :
- www.ohgenki.com
- www.flowerpod.org
- www.gmail.com

TOP 3 Favourite Food :
- dumpling (jiao zi)
- bread (no filling)
- beef

TOP 3 indoor activities :
- gaming
- singing
- eating

TOP 3 Outdoor activities :
- shopping
- slacking
- arcade

TOP 3 Major Expenses :
- food
- games
- shopping

Top 3 Favourite Hangout Place:
- my home
- echo music
- any shopping area

Top 3 Things You Do Everyday:
- surf net, listen to music, rant

Top 3 Favourite Colours :
- Red
- Black
- White

Top 3 Annoying Things/Persons:
- people who think they damn freaking good and comments saying others sux
- multi-headed snakes who just wana get the latest news out from people
- trouble maker who loves playing with fire and law

Top 3 MSN Messenger chatmates:
- deary... deary and deary only (edited coz i guess the him was misleading.. anyway was referring to deary only)

Top 3 Persons You Miss Most:
- dad
- grandfather
- grandmother

Top 3 Persons You Hate Most:
- cant be bother to hate.. they are just annoying~

I'm gonna get heatstroke soon!

2005-04-14T16:36:00.000+08:00

Aarrgghhzz...

Suddenly, I am craving for Mr Bean's Pearly Soya... aarrgghhzz... and the lovely duck rice from the stall opposite Bugis Mos...

Well... I gotta buy lots of albums this weekend... don't bring me to HMV... PLEASE!

Garbage - Bleed Like Me.... woohoo... I love garbage..

Boss asked me if I can work this sat... don't really feel like.. kinda lazy... I don't wana have my wonderful weekend being cut short..

AARRGGHHZZ!!! I wana watch Sincity the movie!~~~~ aarrgghhzzz...

Oh no.. and I wana get CM5!!!!! Freaking hell, saw it in a free game mag yesterday.. aarrgghhzz~~~ CM5!!!
*just in case you don't know what's cm5.. it's Championship Manager 5.. woohoo!!!!!

Freak... i need to get a new set of computer in order to store all my games... aarrgghhzz...

Well... have played the newest percussion freak in Bugis for the past 3 days.. 2 bucks per game.. 3 songs only.. but so shiok~ lol~

One more day to go and it'll be SAT!!!!!!!!!!

A childish entry...

2005-04-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

This is gona be a childish entry...

I enjoy and really adore music since young. I love art. I always draw, dance and sing when I was young. But when I grow up, somehow, I'm afraid to persude what I want in life. I turned to reality instead.

Most probably it's because I have low self confident. And do not have enough courage.

2 or 3 years ago (I cant remember the exact number), I got the mp3 of Dreams and Yesterday's Friend (L'ze.Fier / Evolt songs). I treasured these 2 mp3 alot. I kept my mp3 collection in disc. There was once my com crashed, I have a hard time digging out back these 2 mp3. When I burnt out into audio disc, I kept repeating these 2 tracks, until I can sing it out without reading the lyrics before.

Even though the sound of Wu Suo Wei in Asianbeat was not really good, I treasured that mp3 alot too. I remembered asking my friends to visit L'ze.Fier and listened to the sound clips. I remembered playing Dreams and Yesterday's Friend on the CD to my friends. I remembered playing the songs by them at my work place.

And... I always hope that I can listen to their songs on the radio. Somehow, half of my wish came true when I heard Sylvester's Suo Yi on 93.3 yesterday night. Though the feeling of the singing isnt much there, but my thoughts made me feel very emotional and touched when I heard the song.

When I watched GeneXis's mtv and the making. Lots of thoughts went through my mind too. Though I only know them after I was with Zw and only attended their Asianbeat competition and the Tampinese Gig, I was there in a number of their jamming.

Deep inside me, I'm just a little fans of both L'ze.Fier and GeneXis. I wish I'm far from them and so, I would never know why they disband and stuffz like that.

I respect and envy all the others who are in a band and continue to persude their dreams in music, no matter how good or bad they are. At least, they dare to dream. They dare to persude it.

I envy them for stepping into a jamming studio, though I do step inside too, but I'm just a listener, just an extra.

You might say that L'ze.Fier and GeneXis are nothing and stuffz.. but to me, they always have a special place in my heart.

But again, despite how much I wish to have the courage and confident like you guys, I dont think I'll ever be able like you all. Conversations with some of you showed that female are not really welcome. I envy those girls who actually got a band.

Nevermind, what to envy about... I can never like them. I dont have a good voice. And I dont have the look, so... definately unwanted.

No matter what, guys are still guys... they're definately more interested in beautiful things huh. Yes... a sudden anger is filling me now, despite all those sorrow just now.

Since most of you do not speak with respect to females, I shall not respect you too.

Rant again

2005-04-09T15:26:00.000+08:00

Lovely Saturday afternoon and I'm at home.

Time to rant again. Why? 'cause I'm pretty angry again.

Please dont assume if you dont know what kinda person I am. I always give others the wrong impression, and people might just talked behind my back. Whatever.

I'm quite a dramatic person. When we were back in Secondary school, we believe in behaving how we feel, and not acting in front of the others just to get a good impression. Yup, I'm emotional and dramatic, call me loud if you want to. Why? Coz I dare to feel, I dare to show it out. Why hide my feeling right? Dramatic.... pretty regret that I didnt join any drama group for CCA.

And just because I seldom speak up in this scene, you guys are stepping all over me. I admit I think too much somtimes, but sometimes I know what's happening too. Do you know why I seldom speak up? 'cause I feel that most of the time, the conversation between some of you are just plain hurtful to my ears, not to mention of digesting it and participate in it.

Some topics are simply senseless. There's a thin line between funny and trying-hard-to-be-funny. Crap, but please crap with sense sometimes. Dont show your stupidity ya know.

May I ask a question? Does including a vulgarity word make you sound cool or what? I simply cant stand those who needs to include "ch** b**" in every sentence of theirs. That word is just one of the most frequently used.

I dont know, but that's simply awful to be heard, and doesnt sound good to any passerby too. What's so good in scolding all these vulgarity? To me, it shows that you have no respect for people around you. I dont care if you were some high rank gangster or just some wannabe.

Disgusted. And definately I do not like to hang around with people who dislike me or find me weird in one way or another. Dont comments on me if you dont even freaking know me or have a decent conversation on me.

2005-04-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hohoho~~~ today is the 8th of April and guess what? I bought Sly's album out of curiousity.

Played it through while working, and my boss was very interested in listening too.

Ermm.. the recording is not really that good. The package is quite low-budget. -_-

Music wise... there's Shuo Yi and another lzefier song (name changed). Overall... I dont know if it's the speaker prob or what, but the recording really not that good... I've tried playing it on another player though.. and same quality came out.

I expected something more and better, but I guess this is rather a safe album, hence... not really what I expected. Most of songs are written by Sly himself... (as stated in the lyrics booklet) *shrug*

Well.. I should move on to my buy list of CD:
1) Shi Kang Jun Jones - he's good! but very much like Shin.
2) Mika Nakashima
3) Joey Rou Zhu Er
4) Mavis Fan newest album
5) Ben Shi Wen Bin (he is good... much of R & B and David Tao's kind)
6) Leo Ku -> Jin Ge Jin Qu

ermm... shall think think.. that's all for the asian

Time to rant~~~~ RRROOOAAARRR

2005-04-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

Time to rant.. super duper gloomy wednesday... why? My boss asked to me report work at 1pm instead. aarrgghzz..

Do I look like an idiot to you? Why I have a feeling that most of you ppl out there are thinking/treating like a fool? Or is it just because I have low self-confident? What the...

I mean.. my parents DID send me to SCHOOLS and STUDY. I wasnt just sleeping in my past 22 years of life. And I do READ NEWSPAPER, MAGAZINE, BOOKS etc. I dont just laze around. And I really DID take both practical and theory exams from ABRSM.

Aarrgghhzz... I dont know if this is good or bad to be treated like an idiot. Or can I use the word bimbo? eh.. nah~~~ I have no boobs, not blonde and definately not in the pretty category... ok.. I shall use the word stupid, ok?

Back in the poly days... kinda sucky. Everyone... seems like everyone thought that I'm some fool who cant read huh. And this kinda treatment has been tagging me everywhere... school, work, and everywhere.

Can anyone tell me if there's a sentence "I know nothing!" on my forehead?

And hence, when I speak up, I actually amazed people! What the... I mean.. I know how to speak, read and listen ok.

And, can anyone tell me what must I wear in order to be treated fairly in a music store? I mean do the sales in music store have to give me the attitude that I know nuts about music and have never hear any music in my life?

I'm angry. Yes. I'm furious. Just because I dont type in chim English doesnt make me a fool right?

Stop treating me like an idiot. If not, I wont show you respect.

2005-04-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

oh great I'm sick. Very sick.

And I just realised that my job scope is super wide. Course co-ordinator cum admin cum account cum cleaner cum designer... what the.... and they are paying me peanuts.

I spent what I earned, I dont get a single cents from parents nowadays. Hence, I'm not rich and definately not a charity organization. Yes, money matter again. Unless I said "It's my treat." If not, please have the courtasy to pay me back, especially when you said you'll pay me back.

I never mention it when I see you doesnt mean I've forgotten about it. Please... I am no charity organization. If you dont have the money, then dont go. Instead of me paying first and owe me. Some are good, they remember and they'll pay me back once they have the cash. But I've seen some that rather spend on other stuffz than to return what they have owe.

I know mine is just small amount, so... please return. Or at least let me know when you returning or if you EVER remember it. The worse is when I gotta see them often, or even... I've actually sms-ed the person regarding it, and they simply cant bother to bring it up. Perhaps it's my fault for not being direct enough, but that's because I respect you and give you "face".

I've heard alot of this kinda money matter in this circle. Somehow I'm really disappointed in the being of some. They have the money to spend on their lesiure and cant return. This is bad.

This is real bad.

2005-03-29T19:24:00.000+08:00

Oh well~ let's summerize what I've done for the past weekend.

Fri:
Walked around Orchard with Lester... all i can rem was just eat and eat and eat... hahaha.. anyway saw Jason(ex l'ze.fier) and Ah bu( is that her? think i never see wrongly ba) at PS, also saw some sganime ppl in costumes (!!!) there.

Sat:
Para pract.. haha.. unfortunately the player played us out by not functioning properly. Hence, ended up to be a briefing and discussion instead.

Then I headed down to Taka to find Deary. Had dinner (just bought food from the basement) with Alfe & Toriko, Savior & Kuek. And after that Savior, Kuek and us went to kino, where we met up with Wenjie. Crapped quite abit outside taka... and they have a good time looking at some models that walked past.. (oops~), and decided to head home.

We had supper/dinner at Toa Payoh MOS. Woohoo~~ I cant stop eating! Lol~

Sun:
Hehe~~ deary brought me to watch The Pooh's movie at Cine, we bought nachos & popcorns~ then we walked around heeren... and had dinner at my fav cheap cheap place at somerset. We ordered 1 yakiniku set, 1 sukiyaki set and 1 paper steamboat set~ yummy~~

Then we headed down to Aljunied to catch abit of Kuek's jamming. Had a drink (green tea) at the coffee shop with ivan, brian and kuek and then headed home~

Current Wish List: ( or i should call it my buy list?)
1) Nana Vol 12
2) shoes from double decker
3) The Sims2! Yup i'm too bored at work.. and yup.. gona get the original instead of pirated one coz the build mode dont work for pirated one.

That's all for now I guess.

2005-03-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

Ok.. just went to tigerairways.com to look at their price. Ermm.. I'm thinking of going back to Macau for trip (mom wants to.. -_-) I'm tight on budget, coz I gona spend alot on shopping... hence, might be taking this budget airline to try out..

I'm sincerely asking if anyone wana join me for my trip back to Macau & Hong Kong... I can be your translator and tour guides!!! Let me know if anyone keen ok? Then I can check out if there's gona be any interesting gigs and events to go for also~ hahaha...

I shall update my life for the past 2 days later.. hehehe

2005-03-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

Nothing much actually... though it's gona be Good Friday, but hell, deary's working on Good Fri.. aarrgghhzz!!!

Well, I realised something interesting, I guess my blog is the most boring!!! Why? Coz I only know how to rant and crap in super simple English. And... my life is boring. Hahaha... Unlike others, they'll be blogging about their instruments, their gigs/ jamming, their dolls and toys, their study, their buys, their games, their encounters with other bands, their practices on instruments, their cosplays...etc.

Ermm... I do blog about my buys.. but mine are just cheap clothing from abercrombie, old navy, gap, victorias secret... those online shop, nothing fancy nothing in limited edition. And, I have nothing to blog about my instruments.. mine is just a piano and a normal acoustic guitar... I have no gigs and no jamming to blog about. I only have my soft toys like Pooh, and dolls like Barbie (kept in boxes). I only have simple toys and figures which cost me peanuts only. I'm not studying currently, hence nothing~. I only play simple games on ps2, cant be bother with pc games anymore. No band wants me, in fact, I felt that I was kicked out by 3 bands unknowingly or I kicked myself out? Lol... I guess to them, I'm a freaking lousy keyboardist. Whatever but they seriously hurt me deep and caused my phobia in jamming, even stepping into jamming studio. Yup I mean it. I hardly practise my piano & the acoustic guitar which bought yrs ago, even if I do, nothing much but just normal practices, nothing fantastic worth mentioning. I have not been cosplaying for years, and I never take a long time in planning coz I only decide like.. ermm.. one week or 3 days before the actual thingy.

Man... my life is boring... no toy, no study, no work, no gadget, no games, no band, no instruments, no cosplay, no labels/branded stuffz... etc

Haiz...

2005-03-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ermm.. I just realised one thing... perhaps we should always give a second chance.

Remember few months back there was this very pop topic of a group named A****? Lots of comments about them and blah blah blah... But after talking to one of them, I found out that they are not really what some have been commenting them about.

And now the pop topic is a guy named M****** blah blah.. I do feel guilty of giving comment. But again, after talking to him, I guess we should give them a "second chance" of knowing each other better.

Somehow, dont you feel that the so-call jrock cosplay/band committee is getting more and more unfriendly? Why? Seems like they dont welcome new people, and cant be bothered to know them but just condemn them straight away.

Yup... I wish that this committee can be a more friendly environment like last time, at least not so much competition between one another. And I sincerely hope you guys can be opened up and know more jrock fans out there.

Oh yah.. I WANT TO GO KTV!!! QUICK QUICK QUICK!!!! why no one wana go liao??? >.<

2005-03-21T19:33:00.000+08:00

missed out one skirt =p

2005-03-21T18:37:00.000+08:00

Just posted a few pics of my spree items, just casual stuffz for work.. (i'm freaking lazy to dress properly when I go for work) Yup.. just ordered them last week, gona take 2-3 weeks to reach my place though. And coz of making the stupid order, deary and I were at the internet cafe for 1+ hour last sat.

Headed to orchard after that, and ta da~ got the april Kera... well.. love and hate. I'm desperate for Nana movies and ps2 game... hate... not bishi enough!!!! aarrgghhzz!!! kinda disappointing.. >.< While for the game, should I order it online? Aarrgghhzz

Btw, anyone wana do para in cosfest? Let me know.. we'll be having practices soon... dont know why, I'm helping to co ordinate the group with the Takahan. So... *shrug* I know you are laughing when you see the word para para right... fine fine fine -_-

What's new? ermm.. There's a new guy call Jones... first album and one song he actually singing with Shin. Know some stuffz abt him from my boss... interesting guy that my boss wanted to help him years ago.

Twins chinese album is out! Woohoo!!!! more twins' songs for ktv! hahaha.. ermm.. cantonese is not enough for me~~~ MUAHAHAHAHA~~~

Well.... let's go KTV!!!! quick quick quick.. i'm desperate to go!!! I mean it... how abt.. erm.. this wkend? action speak louder than words.. so... lets go!!!!!!!!
(eh... contact me or contact zw ok? =D )

2005-03-21T18:19:00.004+08:00

smocked tunic in lima bean green!

2005-03-21T18:19:00.003+08:00

smocked tunic!

2005-03-21T18:19:00.002+08:00

another normal top

2005-03-21T18:19:00.001+08:00

normal top

2005-03-21T18:19:00.000+08:00

skirt

2005-03-21T18:18:00.005+08:00

slides

2005-03-21T18:18:00.004+08:00

slides

2005-03-21T18:18:00.003+08:00

White

2005-03-21T18:18:00.002+08:00

green polo

2005-03-21T18:18:00.001+08:00

polo

2005-03-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

sweater

2005-03-21T18:17:00.003+08:00

sweater

2005-03-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

got 2 of this.. one's mine and the other is deary's

2005-03-21T18:17:00.001+08:00

white flipflop

2005-03-21T18:17:00.000+08:00

pink flipflop

2005-03-21T18:16:00.001+08:00

Bag 2 in pink~

2005-03-21T18:16:00.000+08:00

Bag

2005-03-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

What's new today?

Oh.. the street fest cosplay competition~ nothing new, just that there're tonnes of comments abt the rules and regulation... there're even people thinking that street fest org is anti STAC and SCC... and.. ta da.. they even thinking of boycotting! Well well well.... is that childish? If yes, then hohoho~~ finally there're people who can competite with me for childishness!!! Woohoo~~~

*clap clap clap*

2005-03-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~~~
Scary scary.. what's so scary? Ermm... I just realised that my blog is so easy to read~ haha... Coz my English standard is low low LOW! Freak... can you believe I was from Cedar Girls? HAHAHAHA~~~ yes, I was.

Anyway, what's hot today? Ohh.. I was listening to radio (freak.. i can only hear with my right ear still!!! ) while on the way to work. The dj was discussing about... Sly. "Will Sly be the Singapore Pop 天王 after he released his album?" and "His dad said sly will be better than Jay!" (eh.. uncle dont sue me hor... this was said by the DJ from 88.3, not me ok... she said you said one... just in case ar.... )... And then, there were sms-es sent in by the listeners.. some are pretty funny.. "I wont waste the money to buy his album, I rather throw the money into the sea." Whoops!

Anyway... what's my view? Ermm... I'll buy his album.. or.. wait for my boss to buy the album. Why? I mean why not? Or perhaps I'll just listen it off from MTV channel (if they have his mtv...) It's kinda sad you know.. you can easily view any mtv from Lin Jun Jie, Step Sun, Tanya, A-Do.etc from mtv channel, and you can never find mtv of... ermm... CPJ? (chou pi jiang) oh yah.. once i saw theirs on.... channel 55 or 56!

Ohh... what's hot next? Again.... Maia.. maia maia.. Today Chinese newspaper have an interview with her. Ermm.... anyone pls enlighten me.. She said her dressing is a combination of Rock & Punk. Errmm... judging from the photos in the article.. I see nothing of rock & punk. Anyway, she'll be performing in NUS Talent Quest Final this coming sunday.

Ermm.. what's next? What's the hottest news these few weeks??? Sly & Maia... GeneXis say Bye Bye... and the unclear status of L'ze.Fier... Ermm.. (haha.. dont laugh.. I know the first was kinda a "national news"... so shouldnt be put together with the other 2 =p )

Well well well... what to conclude? I guess alot of people out there loves facial! Why? Coz facial consists of masks!... hahaha...

I just realised... ermm.. not really "just".. but yah... this scene is so complicated!!! You know... can really film into 真情!!! All the complicating stories of this person that person... all the revenge, teasing, acting, sarcasm...etc... Wow!!! Perhaps they should go for 才华横溢出新秀!!! I'm sure some of them will have a super duper bright future in acting.

Dont shoot me! =p

2005-03-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

Aarrgghzz.. I'm currently handicapped. Why? I was totally muted and deaf yesterday morning. From yesterday afternoon till now, I'm muted and half deaf(only my right ear can hear).

Yes... I cant talk! I cant freaking hear properly too. I've to write down or type sms in order to communicate. Worse... I'm having the freaking cramp! aarrgghhzz!!!

I have bad cramp montly... -_- Most of the time I would be carried by others to the clinic. Vomits and fainted in school were common for me when I have cramp. Haha...

Well well well...

2005-03-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

aarrgghhzzz!!! horrible ulcers + sore + infection = I cant hear a single thing when i woke up this morning, and I cant talk!!!

Crap.. yes, I cant talk and by now... only my right ear can hear abit.. bad huh. Yes, it's freaking bad! I cant really eat for days... sat still fine, except dinner. The whole of sunday, I only taken 2 coke float, 1 camomile with honey and 1 tiny bowl of campbell soup. And yesterday... 1 bottle of glucose water and 2 bowl of porridge. Freak, I NEED TO BITE! I NEED TO CHEW!!!

Since I cant talk, hahaha... I shall type~ lala~~~

Oh well... I was browsing through sganime forum, and guess what?! Seems that some of the people there find that the first guy who performed in ACM was.. ermm.. good? They even jammed with him!!! And even commented saying his voice is high!? Well.. I thought most of us were laughing our ass out when there were people who actually find him good. Well well well... according to the forum.. his nick is masa soemthing.. Freak! I'm so bitchy! But who cares!!! He was really funny k.. voice high.. ermm. I thought he was pretty flat for all the songs? *shrug* Perhaps it's all my wrong, I have bad hearing... *giggles* yah.. the effort is there... and.. cant light his ciggy... *oops* my bad my bad... Hahahaha... what's wrong with their hearing man...

God is fair.. I was telling deary that if God ever talk to me, I might be making a request of giving me 10-15kg of fats and let me have a good voice. *oops.. my bad my bad*... God is fair most of the time, give you talent, dont give you appearence. Give you appearence, dont give you talent.... But.. ermm.. 10-15kg... forget it.. I'll keep my bad voice and my weight. Lol~~~

Ermm.. Music is something that brought all of us together. Supposedly, I believe this bunch are people who appreciate music? But guess what!!??? There're actually people who use music as revenge.. oh well.. seriously, I feel that it's an INSULT to MUSIC. And if they call themselves musicians, shame on them. They bring shame to fellow people who make music. Yes, completely it's an INSULT! Even if they might go far one day, they'll fall coz the intention was bad, and I believe God is FAIR! Even if you are taking a ride from Luck Goddess.

Well.. perhaps you must be thinking serve me right with bad ulcers+sore+infection coz I bitch so much huh... Whatever, I'm just stating the truth. And at least, I AINT badmouthing BEHIND people's back. I'm just doing usual ranting in my blog.~ hohoho~~~

2005-03-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

Oh well... just bought 2 Jacky's CD yesterday. One of them is the recent concert. I love the song
我真的受傷了( Wo Zhen De Shou Shang Le), I prefer it to be sang by the composer.

Yup... I have the "urge" to go ktv again. haha... Well.. it's a torture to go with me. Lol... but yup, I really love singing alot. My ultimate dream is to perform (singing...). Though I often sang with my choir in church for wedding, xmas..etc, but later on I was being "forced" to be the pianist. In school.. ermm.. I was in military/ concert band back in sec sch days.. No chance to sing except chinese lesson in sec 2. haha.. my chinese teacher made us divided into groups and accumulate points through out the whole year. Once, there was this competition of singing 但願人長久(Dan Yuan Ren Chang Jiu).

In pri school, pri 3 and pri 4, my form teacher made us sing Accapella for Dreams and Stand by Me for end of year performance. Haha.. and in poly.. oh well.. this is the worst!!! I sang Season in the school atrium during CCA exhibition... -_-... sang that with another girl, and yeah... she was out of key.. -_- and the very last chance of singing in school will be during the Singing Competition held in school for Sch of IT and Sch of Design student. My group got 3rd.. Haha...

But yah.. I know my singing sucks and should just hide behind being the pianist. I wouldnt wana hurt anyone's ears with my singing. haha...

Enough of my ranting abt singing.. >.< and I guess you must be laughing the hell out huh... haha..

2005-03-03T15:44:00.000+08:00

Can someone please tell me the direction to a place free of rumours and gossips? I wana go there. Please any kind soul can direct me there?

2005-02-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

Sat:
Went to find Deary at Wee Lee... as usual, they jam and I read my book. After that, as going to the same way (town), so Ah Long drove us there. Deary and I headed to Kino and saw Alfe, Ah Long, Wenjie and Edmund there, then we went to Cine for dinner without Alfe (he's meeting toriko). Ivan, Vics and gf joined us and after much discussion, we went to slack at East Coast. We were separated into 2 cars (Wenjie's lorry and Ah Long's car). As I never sit at the back of lorry before, so deary and I, together with Jojo and Rimei got on to wenjie's lorry while ivan, vics n gf took the ride from Ah Long.

haha... and later on Sebas, Kuek n gf joined us at East Coast... they played bowling and I went to arcade with Jojo and Rimei. Guess what.. I played DDR with Rimei!!! Damn funny.. the very last time I played was like... ermm... 6 years ago when i was in Sec 4! Freak...

Around 12+am, everyone went back and we took our ride back in Sebas' car.

Sun:
Woke up, got changed and headed down to Tampines Mall. Kelvin was the first to reach, and followed by us... and after awhile, Alfe and Savior reached. After they are done with their sound check, we have our lunch.. or was it breakfast... at Yoshinoya.. slack slack slack... played with the chicky toy at the mac while waiting for the gig...

Ermm... fun.. and yah... though I only started attending you guys' gig since the street fest, I enjoyed every gigs you guys played in, be it good or not so good. =)

Back to my thoughts... I enjoyed and love going to different kinda gigs.. and I really love popping here and there to catch the gigs during street fest.. why street fest? coz I can catch a few at one shot. =p Not just jrock but punk and stuffz... even if I dont know what band is that. For example, couple of months ago, there's this charity stuffz going on in Orchard Road, and there were bands playing outside paragon. I stopped and watch for awhile, and I enjoyed myself. It's never a waste of time to attend anyone any band's gig. I dont understand why there're people out there who feel that it's a waste of time catching GeneXis' gig. I mean... if you feel that it's a waste of time, you can keep it to yourself instead of saying it out... *shrug* but it's ok... the guys are strong and they welcome all kinds of comments, right?

Ok.. instead of ranting.. let me talk about my bluey monday!
Monday blue.. damn freaking blue.. I gotta drag my body to work... 何耀珊 came to my school just now for her vocal class.... aarrgghzz... I aint excited at all...
What excited me was that when I got on the bus (to work)... guess who I saw sitting at the back of the bus???!!! The guy who's the lead actor at the local film "15"!!! Woot!~!~!~

haha...... why am I so excited? I shall go on that next time.

Haiz... I'm having a very xin suan feeling now.. haiz... Yah.. again... I'm upset and my freaking affected me so badly that I'm having a terrible stomach cramp... Whenever I dont feel right... I'll have cramp here and there.. and just now I felt so giddy as if I was floating in the air.

I'm disappointed.... well I shall rant another time before I'll break down coz of all these shits happening around me...

Aarrgghhzz... miss my deary~~ teeheeehee

Hohoho

2005-02-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hohoho... I will not be able to online as often for the next couple of weeks. My working hours will be 1pm-7:30pm instead... so those who always meet up with me, please take note ar~~~

Ermm.. interesting entry I have previously right? Haha... what if I say only partially are real? The rest are based on a movie I have watched years ago but not outta my head yet? Yah.. the real part is I think there might be some misunderstanding between me and a friend and I hope we are ok soon... so kinda miss meeting up with her yeah.

Ohh... regarding those rumours spreader and blah blah blah... I watched a movie called Gossips years ago at HBO or Cinemax... cant rem. But it got real interesting plot... people are killed/ crimes are committed just because of rumours (untrue stuffz about a person/thing). Isnt it scary? Yeah... ohh.. and why I choose to have this scene as the background? Well.. "this scene" is very unclear, so... why not use it instead of my school since I'm not in school anymore..

And yah... I really did hear a rumour/gossip about me before. But that was told years ago by dont know who saying that my bf at that time was with me is because of my *bling bling*. Funny right?!!!

* bling bling = money *

Oh well.. gotta get down with work again... I wont be in msn that often, anything urgent, contact me thru hp instead ok?

2005-02-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

What have I been doing? How was my past one week?

Nothing much... received my urbanoutfitters and victorias secret shippments. Collected the lovely parasols and 2 GLB from aversofmelody from sganime, thanks alot!!! And lastly, collected my 3 wigs from lexis from sganime, thanks alot too!!!

Well, after collecting the wigs and collecting my ps2 games, we stayed home to try out the games and play awhile. Kuon is quite scary, but it's more of a stabbing game. As I've read from someone's blog and I thought Kingdom Heart is cool and fun... ermm.. not my kinda game though. I'm more used to FF. Got dot hack, winnie the pooh,..etc and some kiddish game. haiz... should have ordered winning eleven 8 instead.

Anyway, met up with kuek later in the night and took a look at the cosplay party. Oh well.... I was having a pretty good day despite one of the games I've ordered cant run. But... I dont know why, was I over-sensitive or something... there's seems to have something wrong. Perhaps it's just because of cosplay "aura" or perhaps spoilt LCD... but.. yah.. I could feel very much that Deary and I was like unwelcome?! I guess I'm just being too sensitive then.

Whatever happened, if a friendship is gone just because untrue rumours spread by others and without clarification from the concerned party, I guess there isnt much I can do or clarify then. Xian Ru Wei Zhu. If a person very much affected by what was told, I guess no matter how hard I tried to confront and clarify with my truthful facts, nothing can be changed.

Whoever is the person who have twisted my words, stuffed words into my mouth, spreading/bitching untrue stuffz about me, it's ok. I wont explain much. I clearly know what others have told me and I just kept whatever being told inside me, especially when the person told me that it's a secret. But do you know something? And I know lots of you in this scene know very well that there's alot of open secret going around. For example, A treats B as his/her friends, so A shared some secret or personal stuffz with B, B agreed to keep the secret, but guess what? The secret was being shared by B with other people. And of course, again B told C it's a secret and blah blah blah.. and B is the one who goes around and tell D, E, F, G..etc.. I know you guys know who these people are. This is just the very first kinda peoeple I've found in this scene - Big Mouth.

Next, Rumours Starter. They are worse than paperazzi. They tell stories(based on their very own imagination) to people. It's either totally fake or they simply twist people's words. Oh well... when they combine force with Big Mouth, hoho...

Contradicter - lots of them. And it's hell funny when you read a blog entry from A saying how he/she dont like certain kinda people or behavior when I feel that the entry is like totally based on his/her own action. Although I can understand that human is always contradicting, but somehow, you dont need to tell the whole word how you dislike blah blah blah while you are one. It'll become more like self-defence.

Anyway, I'm really curious about what people who know nuts about me can spread/bitch about me. Who knows me well in this scene? Ermm... Oh well... I'm not really active in the scene. I'm more like a shadow of Zhiwei. I seldom participate in conversations. Why? At most I'll just laugh with the people. Why? Because I dont have much to comment on. I prefer conversations with wisdom and constructive. Too much crapping wont help me grow. But of course, not all the people in this scene are crappy. And perhaps it's just because the lack of understanding, hence I cant really have a decent conversation with the people. I guess it's partially my fault for not putting in the effort to know people. But well, why am I such a scary cat? It's all because of those contradicter, rumours starter and big mouth. You wont know what'll happened after you have a decent conversation with some people. Next, I really dislike people who try to jokes but ends up getting overboard and become insulting instead. But well, I do admire those who just keep quite and happy go lucky with those insulting comments and work hard.

Like I've asked, who knows me well in this scene? No one... except zhiwei. Oh yah.. And most of the time, I ended up with comments saying I'm unfriendly or something. I'm just not sociable. I hardly say hi to people first, why? Coz I'm a scary cat and I dont talk much. I dont talk much in church too. I wana make friends with the scene people very much. But it just seems that they are all in different groups and stuffz... it's kinda hard to break in. I believe in making friends with my heart. But guess what... my heart has shattered and I'm really sad about this whole thingy. I'm weak, and Zhiwei knew what I have went thru in the past few days. I'm not strong enough to face the different type of people in this society. If I tell you all the stuffz I've told zhiwei, most probably you guys might just think that I'm either insane or trying to be a saint. I'm emotional, I shredded tears again and again just coz of this matter. Perhaps I'm not tough enough to befriend with people in this scene.

It's scary if you ever take the time and analyze what's happening.

Lastly to end, I nearly blow my top and wana stop the "no-name-mention" policy of my blog. I'm really upset about all these stuffz happening in the scene. These kinda verbal war is even scarier than war. Why cant us befriend with others with our heart and stop all these mask-wearing nonsense?

2005-02-17T18:49:00.000+08:00

My Val Day Gift from Deary~

2005-02-16T21:07:00.000+08:00

Isn't that cute? Yup... the pic is above this entry. It's Pooh Go Go Kart~ hehe.. I adores Poohy stuffz..

Aarrgghhzz... my entry is always so lame... I'm always either lost... or start my childish ranting. Cant help it but I admit I'm freaking childish. I dont know why. Perhaps I'm too pampered. Btw, the way and the voice I speak in, it's not act out. Yeah.. I really speak/talk like that. I aint acting cute... but of course, when I'm talking about serious issue or I'm not in mood, I'll be speaking as if I'm giving you a lecture.

I'm confused.. why everyone out there is so... ermm... "chim"? Just take a look at their friendster profile and I'll go "wow~".

Val Day~

2005-02-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~~~ Love is in the air!!!~

It's 14th Feb again~ haha... Roses, teddy and Chocolates everywhere.

I used to think that it's lame to give and receive flower and teddy on val day... Until the day I received roses on my bday.. my thinking changed. The feeling of receiving roses is great, it's just so sweet~ Though I gotta agree that the poor guy's pocket will get a hole from getting roses on val day, and it's really embarassing to be holding the flower wherever you go. And the flower will be gone in a couple of days.. But still.. the very moment the guy pass you the flower, the feeling is undescrible and it's just simply sweet~~~

I aint a teddy person. I'm a poohy and kitty person. Some might find it lame to give soft toy, but to me, as long as you give me something that I like(Winnie the Pooh or Hello Kitty), it's fine. I dislike teddy to the core. Lol~~~ Even though alot of the givers of my poohs have become history, still... their poohs are with me. Somehow I can call myself lucky that I've only received one ugly white bear for my past 22 years. *phew* All others either gave me pooh or hello kitty. The gifts came in soft toy, hp accessories, music box and glass bottles.

Oh yah.. I just recall. Few years ago, I was working part time at a restuarant. And on V day, a regular customer (he's supposedly one of the suitor), bough a pair of banana for me from that Sun Moon Shop. The Sun Moon shop at suntec used to come out with some weird fruits with wordings on it on special days/festival. I was like.. *dot dot dot*...

Seeing my guy spent extra bucks on me for v day aches my heart though. But... it's just so sweet and will stay in our memory. And of course, he's sweet to me on every other day in the year too~ hehe

Love is in the air~ spend it with your love ones including family and friends~

Chinese New Year~

2005-02-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

Weeeeet~~~ I just come back from the super duper squeezy Chinatown. We had our reunion dinner at home. Actually not much of reunion, coz there's only me, my mom and deary. Yup.. my dad is still oversea. -_-

I love the feeling of CNY, but definately not in SINGAPORE!!! I really envy people who can have big big reunion dinner and bai nian on the first day of CNY. They're so fortunate to be able to share the joy with their family member~! Even though some of them might only see each other once a year.

I miss my relatives alot... my cousins, aunts, uncles and my granny and grandpapa!!! I really miss having reunion dinner with them. Flying to HK and Macau to celebrate with both parents' family. Though by now I'm like a stranger to my cousins, but still.. I miss the feeling.

Haiz.. but from lots of forum threads, I realised that alot of people are getting sick of CNY. They'll only know how I feel if experience the loneliness of CNY. They should treasure what they have. Haiz...

Anyway~~~ wish everyone a Prosperous Chinese New Year! And earn more ang bao ar~ haha.. I have ZERO ang bao. Lol~~~

2005-02-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! I'm back from my shoppping.. I'm drop dead tire!!!!! Lol... What have I brought???

Tada~~~~~~

1) Anna Sui Bag, it's a black handbag.. very cute~!
2) Anna Sui Whitening Trial Kit
3) Anna Sui Gloss Lipstick
4) Anna Sui Face Color Stick x 2
5) Anna Sui Eyelash & Eyebrow Color
6) Anna Sui Creamy Eye Color x 3
7) Anna Sui Face Color x 2
8) Anna Sui Nail Color x 4
9) Gucci Rush2 3 piece-set
10) Whitening mask and clay mask

Woohoo~~~ I love both Gucci Rush2 and Envy Me. I guess I'll gona use them on altenate day.. Hahaha~~~

My next shopping spree will be getting MORE Anna Sui stuffz... Teeheehee :D

I went to Toa Payoh in the afternoon. I was damn hungry but outta cash... :( thought of eating Wanton Noodle at Crystal Jade instead coz can pay by card and need not que for ATM. But I walked past the Gui Ling Gao shop!!! That's my fav. They have a new outlet here.. woohoo~~~ no need to go all the way to Chinatown anymore. So.. I dragged myself to the atm and haha.. got myself the big bowl of Gui Ling Gao @ $7.. yummy!!! In case you dont what's Gui Ling Gao, it's something like grass jelly but it's good for health, and of course, ingredients are different. =p

Oh well.. my urbanoutfitters shippment and Victorias Secret shippment will be arrived after Chinese New Year... that's LONG!

I guess I gotta save up alittle.. I'm broke!!! ehh.. for those who owe me money.. please return asap k? if not I'm gona starve to death le.. please please please remember~ coz I paiseh to ask from you all ar... =p

*Edit: Aiyah! How can I forget about Nana!!! Yup! Got the Book 11 from Kino on thu!~ I WANT BOOK 12!!!!!!

2005-02-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

Oh well.. just got my pay days ago but I'm spending them like it never reach my account. Haha...

Ordered a few camis from Victorias Secret as usual. Nothing catch my eyes from Abercrombies, AnF Kids and Hollister so far. *shrug* Perhaps this is a good start for me to save up a little for creepers and platforms. Yeah~ gona order them in March. Most probably will reach in April or May. Just nice for Street Fest and Cosfest, isn't it?

Ermm... Street Fest is coming soon. It's gona be a YEAR!!! It's fast, freaking fast... Wondering what kinda performances will I be catching this year... I always have a dream of performing as a pianist.. ermm.. keyboardist also can. I mean as in... in a band and not choir anymore. But, unfortunately, aarrgghhzz... nvm.

I still have great interest in music, but I'll be experimenting it with my papers. Why? Coz I'm not that brave to take music as career with NOTHING to fall back on. After some chat with an instructor yesterday, I'm considering enrolling into SIM Business Degree. Yah... at least I'll have a paper to fall back on. I'm just so coward... I dont dare to go for my dream in full force. Yah.. and that's why after much consideration, I drop the idea of getting another diploma.

I realised I'm so dramatic that the current bunch of people around cant really accept who I am and might thought that I'm a weirdo. Ermm... My poly pals got used to me pretty well... *shrug*

2005-01-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

yeek~ some updates.

Sat:
Accompanied to deary's jamming and later on, the shooting. I'm here to really apologise to everyone. Sorry!!! I misbehave again. I was really sick towards the end, (yah though I was just sitting there). I was running a fever and my eyes and throat hurtsss... that's why... Sorry Sorry Sorry!!! I've promised ZW that I'll behave well next time. Sorry!!! Sorry to be so dramatic! Sorry!!!

ok.. when I have the blings blings I'll go for behavior consulting and therepy. Once again, I'm sorry!!! >.<

Sun:
hehe~ went to eat at one of our fav place. It's cheap! and the food not bad. Lol~ Then Deary brought me to this Hello Kitty Shop while waiting for kuek and his gf. I bought my 2005 schedule book, a metal box and 2 packets of sweets. hehe! All Hello Kitty!!!
Then the 4 of us walked around in Orchard( same old place.. heeren and kino...). In Kino, we saw Iris and Akane & bf. Nothing much but just walked around... MY NANA VOL 11 STILL NOT IN!!! aarrgghhzz...
We had dinner at PS... oops. I didnt have dinner with them coz I went to shop with my mom~ hehe.. then I joined them back and played a game at the arcade before heading to Mac for my dinner! haha

Yeah. We chatted and again.. Ghost stuffz.. *shiver*

It's fun to hang around with them... ~ chatted until around 3+am then we headed home.

Today:
Before I go for work, Deary and I had our lunch at bugis kfc. Right after we put down our food, Ivan appeared~ lol... then after awhile, we saw Xiao Yun walked past.

And now.. I'm stuck in the office! but nvm~ tonight I gotta catch Desparate housewives~ LOL!!!

OMG!

2005-01-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

I've spent a wonderful friday with Deary... After passing some spree items to a girl in Orchard, we headed to Kino and bought Kera and a book. Feeling lost in orchard after eating the lovely cheese balls, we went to tpy~

Oh man... I miss bubble tea and here we go! We had our dinner at the bubble tea house and each of us ordered one more glass of bubble tea and chat~ before we head to mos to meet kenn and his neighbour. Lol... they chatted abt ns life and *yawn*... we took the last bus home~

Hehe.. I love chatting with deary. We can chat like pals sometimes. I guess this is what we call soul mate. It's not easy to come by and hence, we must treasure each other~ *wink*

Sat~

Met up with another girl to pass her some spree items, and hehehehe.. I got myself another pair of boots~ Muahahhaa.. I cant stop shopping!!! It's cheap!!! 79.90 bucks~~ cheaper than what I was lemming in a site and can be subsitute to it. hehe~~~

When we were on our way to Wee Lee, we saw Kelvin. So, ended up going Wee Lee together. Nah.. not jamming but went to peep peep at ppl's jam~

Deary and I, Kuek, Tabe and Vic headed down to Suntec. Tabe went to clark quey for his toys... and so left the 4 of us. Vics left us to meet his girl for a percussion concert in esplanade. So.... me, deary, kuek and ah wei have dinner at Kenny Roger and have a chat at the seaside near to Esplanade..

And.. here comes the scary part... After Ah wei left us and blah blah blah.. it was around 2+ I guessed... I kept looking around coz I wana know if there's still anymore ppl/couples around us. Then once I looked at the back direction of deary.. I saw a white shadow thing thru the corner of my right eye and it juz zzooommm and disappear. I thought my eyes was playing a trick then. After awhile, I heard a "ah.. ha~~" from the Sea. It sounds like female fairy playing around and laugh(usually they giggle in the movies). I told myself it was just sound of bubbles... but somehow the feeling is not right. I tried to tell deary and kuek but aarrgghhzz... Anyway... they continued talking abt some empty town..etc... I felt pretty uneasy and kept asking them to leave. Then, I heard a man voice of "wooooow" from the sea again. This time round I cannot stand it anymore, I stood up and pulled deary's jacket.. So we went off. After Kuek got on his nightrider and we broaded on ours. I told deary abt the incident. And I tried to rest alittle. But when the bus turned right to CK Tang, a man voice talked into my left ear saying something similar to "Kkkuueeekkk"... I freaked out and threw my bag onto the floor. I can feel myself shivering from the inside. We quickly changed place and I told deary abt it. We were sitting at the back of the bus and i was sitting right beside the window.

oh well... scary isnt it.. aarrgghhzzz....

lalala

2005-01-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

Ermm... it's been a looooong time since I last updated.

1/1 Sat:
Attended Deary's cousin's wedding dinner in a cruise. Cool... but giddy! Oh well, it was an interesting event. I guess I was alittle bit too formal comparing to other guest around my age. But hey! it's cool! and scary to meet his relatives.

Note: Rule to take note when meeting your partner's relatives -> Smile!

2/1 Sun:
Kyoist's treat to marina south bbq dinner~ ppl attended: Me & Deary, kyoist & kenneth and Tabe & Ivan. Then we headed to Partyworld after that. But deary n me went off early coz deary was working morning shift the next day.

5/1 Wed:
After work, met up with Kyoist & kenneth at tpy. Conincidentally, they saw Kenn & Claris, hence... all met up together~ hahaha... and we have such a FULL dinner at Mos! Deary and I ordered 2 hamburger, 1 teriyaki chicken burger set upsize to large fries and large ice milk tea, 1 apple pie, 6 ichigo bliss and 1 garlic mussels. Woohoo~~ chat chat chat... we moved from outside 7-11 to outside Courts.. last destination -> coffeeshop to have a super late supper at around 3+ close to 4. Deary and I left early coz I was so freaking tire!!!

6/1 Thu:
MC! Deary and I have the buffet at Sakae Sushi @ Heeren. Oh man.. the sushi SUCKS! Then Deary went for recording at Alfe's place. So... I was left hanging around in town and waited for kyoist and Kenneth. Then met up with Deary at tpy later to eat the sucky mac new meal...

Anyway... oh man. I spent my weekend + fri night staying at home watching charity shows on Tsunami and all the documentries and news report on the Tsunami. We gotta thank God for what we have now. Do treasure the people around you and your family. Dont take things for granted. Seriously I was quite affected after watching all those stuffz. haiz.. this is supposedly to be a long entry but I gona cut it short and continue next time.

Rem, treasure the people around you and STOP BITCHING ABOUT ONE ANOTHER!

Lots of thoughts

2004-12-30T19:56:00.000+08:00

Alright... If only I'm off tomorrow. If only they got in and earn the chance to perform at Sentosa... If and if... Then I'll sure be spending the 19 bucks and get myself to the Sentosa Countdown thingy. Coz it would have been so worthy! Why? Coz... I'll be able to see... them(if only they got in that time), David Yeo(haha... the SI thingy), S-dude, Djasli(my boss, he'll be playing guitar for the SI peepz during the performance), Chou Pi Jiang!!! See! Really worth it right? haha...

but...

I'm gonna go home and watch tv/play games after work tomorrow and celebrate my New Year's Eve that way.

Oh well... recently there seems to have fire everywhere! Is it cause everyone is pretty broke in the end of year and hence the bad mood?

I dont know, sometime I might be so evil that I feel so guilty and bad after that. >.<

Sometimes people might have said wrong things and being contradicting. But isnt that very common and occurs often if you are human? No one is a Saint right... I dont know. But why cant everyone just befriend with their hearts?

Too much bitching/back stabbing is bad for health.. Why cant people just treat each other with sincerity? *shrug*

This is life but I really dont like it! Make it a more friendly community, cant u people?

*Haiz...*

Woohooo~

2004-12-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

Oh well...

Sunday was fun! And it was "eye opening" for me... Too bad, GeneXis wasnt there, if not.. woohoo!

Anyway, I WANA GO to the SENTOSA COUNTDOWN! coz... got Chou Pi Jiang! But.. nah.. not going..

I'm bored.. really bored.. need to find something to do... aarrgghhzz

2004-12-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas!!!

Woohoo~~ it's Xmas eve! And this year my church doesnt have any service today. =(

Anyway, wanted to get out earlier to Bugis to get some wrapping paper. But... Ta da!!! Postman finally reached my door step!!!

Woohoo~~~ my 2nd and 3rd shippment from Victorias' Secret finally arrived! And hehe~~~ my lovely garterbelts finally is here! =D

Oh well, I've been spending quite alot lately.... juz ordered a sleep pants from AnF kids. And gona spend more on Delias, Urbanoutfitters and VS again! Muahahaha...

I'm still working now... Boss will only let me go around 7:30pm... so from now till then, it's surfing time! Lol~

Ermm

2004-12-21T16:47:00.000+08:00

Alright.. how did I spend my weekend? Hang out abit with Kyoist and Kenneath in town, then met up with Deary and have dinner at this so-call Japanese fastfood thingy at Cine. Oh man.. it sucks!

Then we headed home to get guitar and met up with Kenn at TPY.. yup again! haha.. the tpy gang.. muahahaha... kenn taught them guitar abit and kenn played while deary sing~ la la la~~~

Alright, something that I wana stress out. THE OWNER OF THIS BLOG - ME - IS NOT A FAN OF SINGAPORE IDOL. PLEASE DO NOT TAG ANYTHING REGARDING SI IN MY BLOG. Go elsewhere to tag this kinda thing. THANKS.

Shopping mood~

2004-12-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

Oh freak! I'm such a online-shopping freak...

My nightmare has come... coz I've finally found a site that's selling the Vivienne Westwood accessories that I wana get!!! Previously from some US or UK site, they are just selling the apparel. And I've been searching up and down for a site that sell auth vivienne westwood stuffz!!! OH FREAK! I gotta control myself!!! aarrgghhzz.. but they are just so lovely... AARRGGHHZZ... this is bad...

Should I get the pendant or the earrings? And which wallet should I get?!!!! Oh man...

Anyway, Mom and I went to the midnight shopping thingy at Suntec yesterday. We just realised that we dont have much time (day time) to shop. It's really interesting but aarrgghhzz... these people are shopping like there's no tomorrow.

I wanted to get my supply of supplements from Fancl since mine is finishing in a day time and they were having a 20% discount. And.. freak! the queue was freaking long with some people queueing up without knowing what it is for! I headed to topshop instead, since I dont need to save that tiny little sum. lol~

Topshop is getting boring and it sucks when it's so crowded. Get a sweater thingy from Topman instead. And wow~ bonus! Got a $10 voucher. Lol~

Walked around a little. Pretty disappointed that Aldo was closed by the time we reached there. Coz they are having xmas sales, and since I dont have much time to shop, I wanted to grab this chance to get some pumps or heels. >.< Alright... further up, the terrible Charles and Keith! Females creatures were snatching shoes and stuffz.. oh well, it's having a 15% discount. But I thought normally they have discount pretty often?!

Anyway, shopped alittle in OZOC. Wanted to get a fur-collar blazer like thingy. But mom asked me to consider the weather, so, nvm~ I'll get that next week. *shrug* Oh well, something funny! There was this couple looking around (probably in mid 20 to early 30), then the lady looked at the price tag then turned to her bf/hubby and said:"wah! so expensive! let's get out!"

Well... personally, I love OZOC design and cutting. And definately not expensive! *wonder why that lady will say that*

Conclusion: I prefer to shop on weekdays and I dont really like sales coz it's horrible!

Anger is my Last Name.

2004-12-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

Lemme ask u all a question, do you go around and ask people where they stay?
I dont. And I dont understand why people gotta ask someone that are not close this question.

Does that mean that if one day I see Lin Jun Jie in Orchard Road, I should go up and ask him where he stays? No right...

So... girl... I dont wish to see this kinda nonsense again.

Next! Yes, I'm here to complain again.

I dont understand, people have a girlfriend, so why must ask another person's girlfriend to act as the girlfriend? Is that person's girlfriend SO UGLY?

Sorry people, but I just dont like it. Yes, I know it doesnt concern me, but this is blog, I can say whatever I want. I DONT LIKE IT. AND I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY SOME PEOPLE WILL EVER HAVE SUCH BRILLIANT IDEA.

Alright... enough of complaints... my last weekends...
Sat: Went to a stupid and funny thing with Kyoist, then went to town to have our lunch at Subway. Nothing much so we just hang around until night time and met Deary at TPY mos. Coz Kenn was not feeling well, so we didnt manage to catch up with him.

Sun: Mom, deary and I went to church and ate dim sum for lunch~ then off we go, we went to orchard to get my 2 Gap Bags and my hollister top, then headed for his mtv meeting. Instead of staying there, I chose to shop around. Coz it was raining, so I went back to find deary. But when I reach there, there's no more place to sit except this pathetic seat tat's out of the shelter. No choice, so I sat under the rain. -_- We quarrelled a little, but we are back to good terms again real fast. So I shopped around again until Deary called me saying they were heading FEP for dinner. So I went to have dinner with them. Hang out abit then we went to meet kyoist. When we were at Taka, we saw Rimei, Shirl and Leonard. And Yeah~ I got the big big Astro Boy! Yup, then the 3 of us met up with Kenn at TPY~ hahaha

Mon: I was on mc and so I spent the day with Deary. Then at night we went to meet Kyoist and Kenneath. Kenn was busy, so he didnt come down in the end. We went to Kyoist place and played abit of guitar and games. Hahaha so funny!!! Stayed until around 1:30am then we headed home coz I gotta work the following day.

Spent the whole night with Deary yesterday. Muacks! hehe... He sent me off to work... *blush~*

Deary... miss ya miss ya... very soon will be Sunday and hehe~ we can hugglez again! *muackz*

I dont know...

2004-12-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

I'm bored, as usual. And again, I think alot. I cant control it, my brain just function by itself and doing well.

I'm angry. I'm upset. I feel horrible.

I wish deary's off day will come fast and can hugglez again. But I know I'm gona feel upset on deary's off days soon... Yes, I hate it. I hate all those stuffz. I dont like them to take him away from me. I dont mind quitting my job without fullfill the terms stated in the contract of working at least 6 months, just to assure myself that everything is fine.

2004-12-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

I'm tire. There's alot of things happening... around me. I wish I'm fairy god mother. I wish to make people around me happy. My heart is there, but I have limited resources and power. All I can is just to lend my listening ears.

How I wish mediacrop never have the show Singapore Idol. Without it, I guess alot of us will be happier and with lesser anger. I'm getting sick and tire of reading the newspapers and watching tv. Our eyes are not green, and we are not blind like many out there.

What is music? What is design? What is art? What is friendship? What is love?

Everything seems so commercialise that somehow, the actual meaning is gone.

There's alot of things that I don't understand, but I guess, this is life.

Anyway, I just remember something. I dont care how long you've known him, but sorry, I dont like it when you hit(the playing type) my dude. I dont care if you are so call boylish or what. Boylish doesnt mean one would have any form of physical contacts with the others. If you have a habit of doing that, keep it for the others and dont ever lay a finger on my guy. I dont like it.

I love deary~

2004-12-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

woohoo~
I'm in my lovey dovey mood again~

Tonight Deary have night shift again. Haiz~... I miss deary...

Anyway... I was very hyper these few days and I was really happy~ hehe...

Sat was really fun. I accompanied zw to meet the rest of the guys at 9:30am. After their sound check, we took the monorail to Ferry Terminal to have our lunch. IT'S SO FUN!!!

And yesterday we met up with Brian and Weijie.. hang around at Kino browing thru some books on design and music. Then later on met up with Kyoist and our final destination(lol) is to meet up with Kenn and Claris~

So fun!!!!! and most importantly, Dear was with me~ hehe..

Woot~

2004-12-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. I bet most of you are happily staying at home and watching SI. I'm working. Yes. I'm working at this hour. Nothing special. Just because I'm working as Admin cum Course Co-ordinator in a music school - Echomusic. A rather fun and cozy environment.

Let me see what's new today... ermm... alright. Helped my boss to call Maia for her song list for a coming performance. Yes... it's Maia from SI. She used to be an instructor from the school, previously known as Attitude Music. She sounded friendly on the phone. When boss asked me to call, it was around 4+pm. I was thinking that most probably she wont be picking the call, coz I guess she must be preparing for tonight SI show. Haha... just as what I've guessed. She told me she's busy at the moment with make-up and hair, and so she'll let me know of her song list again.

My work consists of calling up students, instructors and planning of their schedule. And sometimes I gotta go along when there's performances. Though sometimes it seems that the workload is rather heavy, but actually it's kinda relaxing. I can surf around most of the time. And hence, I'm back to my forum life. lol~

I'm bored. Yes. I'm really bored. Just curious, how many of you out there would add stranger to your friendster? I dont know, but for myself. I only add friends. At most add those cosplayers/jrock fans (if they request to add me or pm me). Other than these group of people, I simply ignore those pm from guys, and reject all friend request by guys.

Ever since there's online game, yahoo! personal (taiwan one), and friendster (or other friendster like thingy), the chances of guys flirting around increased. Horrible, arent they? And those bitches too. Horrible!

Perhaps I'm just jealous that they look so cute and young? Whatever... I've lost once, I dont wana loose again.

Some thoughts...

2004-11-30T15:21:00.000+08:00

After hanging around for a year plus. I have to really start thinking and working to archieve what I want in life.

Seriously speaking, I'm pretty confuse by myself and being contradicting too. I have the passion in music and design. But no matter what, I told myself I'll never go for it. I've thought of going for what I want after my diploma last year. But, I guess I'll just go for a Bachelor in Econ or Computing instead. Only after I've got myself a degree, then I'll go for what I want.

Designer... be it multimedia, graphic or apparel, there are so many out there. I've heard alot abt it. My aunt is this field too. Since young I've alot of her work. While for my Uncle (aunt's hubby), he's a well-known photographer in Hong Kong. They lead a very interesting yet stressful life. Whatever... I've been constantly reading design magazine and surfing some sites in 2003 - mid of 2004. And instead of making up my mind to take up a design course, I give up totally. I dont wana be a robot and crack my brain just to fullfill clients' requirement, and not expressing my thoughts and do what I like. And I'll never wana work in a company as a designer just to do their brochures. That's totally lame. Unless I'm willing and want to work for the sake of being a designer. But what I feel is that, it will be another channel for me to express myself. Same goes for music.

I'll be taking up a course and planning to take Jazz Piano Diploma from London College of Music. Hopefully after that my saving will be enough for me to buy a Oboe and learn Oboe. I love this double-reed instrument. But it will definately cost more than my piano lesson. Last time my piano lesson + theory is only $280/mth. And for piano, it's easy to get a teacher, but it's gona be hard to get a Oboe teacher. Most probably I'll need to get in touch with my church teacher and ask him.

Anyway, I just got my bank statement, and haha... I've spent $2000+ in this 2 months. Ermm.. what did I spend on? Perhaps it's time for me to save alittle. Lol.

Ohh.. went to SIM yesterday and on the way back, chatted with a couple of instructor from the music school. Haha... they thought I just finish O level... -_- I think I looked much older than usual these few months. All due to the stupid pimple outbreak I got from working in PS. Aarrgghhzz...

I'm 22 now.. very soon I'll reach 25 and that's it. Few more years and ta da~ 30.. here I am! Comparing myself to my pri/sec sch and poly mates, damn... they are either in Uni or working now. What am I doing? No wonder mom kept nagging at me.

I'm a super crazy fans!

2004-11-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

I guess I can promote myself to be one of the crazy fans of GeneXis and L'ze.Fier. Lol.
When I'm on my way to work and back from work, my player will be playing GeneXis and L'ze.Fier songs. When I'm working, the winamp will be playing GeneXis and L'ze.Fier songs too. Their music accompany me wherever I go and whatever I do.

Ermm... I'm in a lovey dovey mood today. hehe~ perhaps is due to the rainy seaon~

Deary Deary!!! I'm so in love with my deary~ I gotta thank God again for preparing such a wonderful guy for me. hehe~~~

ohh... I'm gona send in my resume to apply for the post "Brew Soup & herbal Tea auntie cum Tailor cum Nanny".... Hopefully they'll response... *haiz*

27mins more then knock off le~ and one day more to go and I'll be able to hug zw~ hehe...

No matter what... I'll work hard and fight off all those bitches! Hurray!

*muack to deary*

i'm bored... stolen from savior~

2004-11-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

You scored as Pride.

Pride

88%

Wrath

75%

Lust

75%

Gluttony

56%

Greed

56%

Envy

50%

Sloth

25%

Seven deadly sins
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I'm bored!

2004-11-25T11:03:00.000+08:00

Yes.. I'm bored.. and hence here comes my nonsense!

Another Talent in Hong Kong passed away....
Haiz.... if you guys read the newspaper and watch the news, you'll know who. I guess lots of you cant find yourself connected to him, and you wont bother much. To me, some of the songs written by him are my childhood memory.

I remember last year when I first heard abt the news of Leslie committing sucide, I couldnt believe it until I surf around the net and realised it's real. TV showed programmes of his past archievement and songs..etc.. same goes for Anita Mui.

Their songs and movies are my childhood memories. I cried whenever I hear their songs or watch their shows. And I cried most when I watch the funeral(cable tv showed the whole thingy).

Years ago when Huang Jia Qu(Beyond Vocalist) and Deng Li Jun passed away, I cried.

Haiz... all the talents and my childhood idols passed away...

What kinda girlfriend/girl am I?
Haha.. I was really bored so I surf around and do a little analysis of different types of girlfriends. And... zw.. if you are reading, answer the following questions ok? Coz I dont know what kinda girlfriend I am!~ yeah.. Apart from the jealous and possessive one.

Should I be a mature girlfriend? eh.. I dont know the defination though. Erm.. perhaps meaning she can understand the behaviour of others and dont kick a big fuss.

Should I be a cute girlfriend? eg.. TyPiNg LiKe ThIs o_O? aNd TaLk TaKe PiCs wItH cUtE PoSe? (freak!!!! I've took more than a min to type that bloody short sentence. FREAK! I can never do that... and.. I cant spell the way they do... aarrgghhzz.. forget it)

Erm... but I guess I'm not a good girlfriend. Coz my goal in life is to get marry and be a good wife. Not a good lover. I'm extremely dumb in being a lover. I'm too possessive towards everything. If you do read Nana, you'll understand what I'm talking about.

Sometimes I do feel like typing in the testi and tell other girls to step back and dont ever dare them to lay a finger on my dear. But... that'll make me sound so uncool... Anyway, just in case some people will say my deary this and that and dont have a mirror at home. Whatever, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. What I can see in zw, you are not/might not be able to see it. So, stop saying as if he's the worst looking human on Earth with a super big ego. He didnt. He doesnt. He will not. Whenever I think of that misunderstanding, I'll just get so work up.

Yes. I'm very protective towards my dude. If anyone trying to be funny with him, I wont let you off.

I'm back!

2004-11-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

I'm back... fast right? Why? Coz I forgot to clarify some stuffz.. Whatever I've said in previous entries, it has nothing to do with my Deary directly. And haha.. it's nothing juicy coz me and him is very fine.... why I come back? coz just in case some people misunderstand my entries and thought something happen between us... -_-

2004-11-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

Ok I am wrong. I'm at fault. I shouldnt kick a big fuss out of it. I'm useless. I cant behave and look at things like how other girlfriends do. Sorry. But I'm this childish.

I shall keep my mouth shut and shut down my blog and stuffz. I need to concentrate on more important stuffz in life. Whatever I say, it'll only show how dumb I am, how useless I am... I'm not going to say anything anymore.

Take care peepz... i'll come back when i feel that it's time.... and when I feel better.

2004-11-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

I'm furious.

Simple.

I'm a jealous bitch and i'm a possessive girlfriend. oh well.. who can I blame? Just too bad that I only know zw for such a short period of time. And yes, if she dont know how to spell, she can always check out the spellin at dictionary.com. I just simply DONT LIKE THE WAY SHE TALK. And yes, I repeat: I AM A JEALOUS GIRLFRIEND. I AM A POSSESSIVE GIRLFRIEND. Not only the way she talks get on my nerves, but her spelling error and grammar mistakes too.

Oh well.. not only this particular person, while surfing around a forum, I noticed that some girl/fan girl cant seem to understand simple English. My English standard is low, but goodness, there' re peepz (fan girls) out there who's worse than me. Or are they just trying to act dumb? oh... nonono.. it should be act cute. To me, it just sound plain DUMB.

So sorry but I'm quick temper and I just cant tolerate such shit.

Btw... just curious.. how many of you will ever think that a guy will use "Wawa" as a nickname?

I'm furious. I'm angry. And yes, call me names if you want do. I'm just speaking out watever that's in my mind at this very moment.

Oops!

2004-11-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

Oops... I'm supposed to get out of my room (at least) by now... but.. mom juz got back and I'm really really afraid of getting scolding from her.. so.. i'll juz stay here a little while longer. Ermmm... why'll I get scolding from her?... coz I stayed over at deary's place yesterday, even though I was told to go home before I was out of my house. The reason why my mom wanted me to go home is that, she's worried that my doggies will fight again~

Anyway... wooohoo~~~ seems like recently I only blog once a week?! Lol~ oh man.. I have so much talk about... but I guess I'll leave it for later to blog when I'm work. =p

By the way, I just realised that apart from Forum, Blog is another channel where flaming/wars are happening. Lotsa stuffz happening around and woohoo~~~ stuffz are just getting more and more explosive!

I'm so full that I feel like VOMITING... it's WORD VOMIT!

2004-11-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

Goosh... I feel like vomitting.. I aint sick.. it's gona be WORD VOMIT!

Oh man.. I guess I'm abit too conservative for the society now. But as a female, I think we should protect ourselves.

Ok.. let the conservative side of me speak now...

I dont understand why guys LOVE to share their sexual story with their pals. ok.. perhaps it can boost their ego. But cant they spare a thought for their girlfriends? I mean... I really pity the poor girl who get labelled by their bfs as some conservative freakos or horny, and of coz, being labelled as horny is worse than conservative freakos. Especially if the guys share the details and stuffz.. I mean this is natural for couples, but the guys dont need to do this right? How'll the others look at their gf? And personally, of coz I know my friends (both guys and girls) will make love with their significant one. And yes, that's enough. The details are not necessary. And I dont need to hear it from them as well.

Guys out there, cant u spare a thought for your girls? Girls seldom or nearly never really discuss about such things.. How'll you feel if your girls discuss about your size when they are having girls' talk? And the next time when her fellow girlfriend see you, they give u a look. How'll you feel huh? It is something meant for the both of you and not for the others to know. And if you love to share your "exciting sexual experience" so much... why not take it down and send to your friend then?

I'm disgusted by this group of guys who tell such thing about their girls. Shouldnt they be protecting their love one? Or are they just going for lust?

And dont worry ppl, nothing happened to me, just got inspired by some forum threads that's all.

Bored!

2004-11-16T17:52:00.000+08:00

Yup, I'm bored.. and I'm updating my blog at my work place. The enviornment is pretty cosy. And yeah... Full of music.... sound of drums, guitar, vocal, keyboard... but of course not all are nice...

Anyway... some updates about what I've been doing for the past few days...

Supposed to go KTV with Kuek and Jon, but these 2... haiz... last min last min... in the end, Jon never reply Kuek's sms, so... ends up we gotta postpone to another week. Hey u two! I wana go KTV!!! I dun care... I wana go!!! And this time better confirm earlier ok? Muahahaha...

So, ended up going to IMM alone. I was reading from some forum that the DAISO was a pretty interesting place and the FOS too. I was pretty disappointed with the FOS, limited stuffz and yeah... I still prefer to order online. Haha... And so I headed to Daiso. I think I've spent 2 hours there? lol... Bought 2 aroma oil, bamboo and one dont know what. Haha.. and a green tea scent joss stick, but the scent was really disappointing and nearly made me and zw choked to death. haha... and some other stuffz like a apron thingy for my English Cocker Spaniel - Pipi, to keep his body dry.

I was freaking hungry and headed to China Town to have dumpling (jiao zi) for dinner. I ate 10 med size dumpling and a bowl of noodle (very nice noodle - zha jiang mian ).. haha... and went to PS... and I got a lovely pair of kitty heal. Sweet looking!

By the time I reach home, I'm freaking tired...

Sunday:
After going for church service, lunched with mom at Bugis, and yup! Dumpling again! and actually few days ago, I've been eating dumpling at deary's nearby food centre too. Mom went home and I shop alone again... Got myself a eyeshadow thingy and moisture lipstick from Missah... Babes.. I recommand this shop to you all, and of coz guys too... their stuffz are freaking cheap, quality not bad, and their sales are mostly pretty boys. Lol... but of coz, I still pretty my zw. =p

While waiting for deary to finish jamming, I stayed home and played FFX... bored... then went down to find him at the coffee shop. And we went to listen to L'ze.Fier jam. And at night, zw and I went to Toa Payoh get stock up our snacks for gaming and met up with Kenn to crap awhile.

Oh man... I'm bored... deary will only be off on thurs.. and I'm started to feel sick... I hope I can stay on till weekend... aarrgghhzz... if not, I guess I'll have to see a doc.. and... mc...

Lots to update~

2004-11-09T08:34:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. I was super duper lazy for weeks. A very happening week though.

My 22nd Bday Outing~
Haha.. my bday was on the 27th.. but since it's on a wed, zw decided to have the outing on sat so that it'll be easy for everybody.
Venue: A dimsum restaurant at Chinatown
Time: Supposed to meet at 10am, but in the end we waited until 11am!? Haha
People who came(thanks ppl!!!): Zw deary, me, Rally korkor, Alan, Ah Long, Alfe & Toriko(did i spell correctly?), Kuek, Jojo, Tabe, Vic, Brian, Kyoist & Kenneath, Weijie, Ivan

Haha.. really fun. We were seated in two tables. And overall, I love the feeling of eating together and jokes...etc.

After that, some left us and the rest of us went down to town. And we decided to go KTV~( I love ktv!!!)
Venue: Orchard Party World
Time: 3pm-6pm
People: Zw deary, me, Rally korkor, Kuek, Brian and Vic

I want another KTV outing!!! hehe~

That's all for the bday thingy. Coming up next....

Asian Beat Semi Final
Hehe~I think I was more nervous than them. Especially when they started playing, I gotta hold my breath juz in case my heart will pop out.
It was ok... but no matter what, they have give all they have.
The most breath-taking moment was the annoucing of the result. Zw, me, Emerson and Alan were sitting at the Mac. When the first few names were announced, there were lots of cheers. Then I thought I heard "GeneXis" being called. But I thought my ears were playing a trick on me, so I decided not to alert zw then. =p Then Jonathan went to check out and "ta da~~~~~~"

GeneXis is in Asian Beat FINAL!

woohoo~~~ hehe.. so happy so happy so happy!!!

And next...

My new job
Yup.. I've juz started work yesterday. I'm working as admin at echomusic, previously known as attitude music. It's a music school that offers courses like vocal, drums, guitar, keyboard, songwritting. A cozy enviornment and I hope I'll love the job. The working hours are pretty weird... it's weekday 3pm-9:30pm. But.. I'll try my best then.

2004-10-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

oh man oh man...
just got news from Rally korkor that Kenn is not coming. I think due to his injury and the early meeting time ba.

Nvm... Kenn if u are reading this.. zw will contact you and chill out at your convenience alright? It's my bday leh... lol~~~

Anyway, yeah! Tml can see zw liao~ muahahaha finally! I'm so hyper now~ Muahahahahah~~~

Woot~ i'm officially OLD today!

2004-10-28T11:58:00.000+08:00

oh no.. first day of being 22 and I woke up super late. Damn...

Oh well, I have alot to say but, kinda lazy to type.

I was feeling pretty down yesterday, but I'm glad that I have someone to talk to. Thanks "Someone"! haha...

I still remember that months ago, I have an entry about how shocking it is to see people around me become famous in a day and the differences that the people around him felt. Of course, that doesnt apply to all the people but just some paranoid one like me.

And months later, which is now. I'm in another shocking. Another friend of us is very popular now. Woohoo~~~ I wonder... months later... will I be having another entry abt another similar feeling towards another feeling?

I've told zw abt how I felt the other time. I guess I'm just paranoid. I'm afraid of loosing my friends as I treasure every single one of them. I can remember clearly how I met every single one of them.

This whole thingy is getting freaking. And yes, I'm beginning to reject new stuffz...

I wish this Sat will be an enjoyable outing. Perhaps it's the last time that everyone can get together happily. Haiz...

My birthday!

2004-10-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

Hehe~ yup. Today is my 22nd birthday!

Although there was some misunderstanding between me and zw yesterday, but we sorted things out and we just love each other even more. Hehe~

Deary gotta report to station this morning, and so, I stayed over at his place. He got me a cake. And while I was using his com chatting in irc, he came into the room, off the light and brought me the cake. Although there was no candle, there's a toy figure on top of the cake. Deary suggested of using the fork to knock the head of the figure to replace the blowing of candle. I did it and he laughed. He sang me a birthday song and asked me to make a wish.

I wish....

Hehe~ It's a really sweet birthday. I've never been so touch before. Seriously, the cake size or flower or restuarant etc doesnt count. Most importantly it's the thoughts and heart that count. This is my happiest birthday. I wish to spend all my birthday with zw. =)

Thank you Deary! *MUACKS*

Yeah.. another angry entry

2004-10-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

25 Oct..

Another angry entry. Yes. I'm angry. And I can never forgive. I'll never forgive the one who took away one of my love in life, which is music. I'll never forgive the one who took away my chance of playing in a band.

I'm freaking upset over this whole bloody matter. Aarrgghhzz...

2004-10-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

Something to add on.
My dude is not that ugly and he dun deserve such comments from any of you. No one is ugly in this world. But if your heart is ugly, no matter how pretty your appearence might be, you are just as ugly as ur heart.

I might not know my guy as long as you all. But from the past 4 month plus, I have used my own pair of eyes and my heart to feel what kind of person he is. And all I can say is that, you people have misunderstand him. Just like some people out there have mistaken that I was unfriendly, but now we are talking like old friends. If you dont have the heart to know a person, then that's it. You dont need to bitch about the person and why not just leave the friendship at that state.

To you, my boy might be ugly, but to me, he's my baby, he's my jewel. It's just like mother and child. How would you feel if others comment that your child is ugly? But worst of all, it was just a misunderstand due to the way each phrase their sentences and coz of the bossy me dont like him doing certain stuff.

Blame it to me instead alright? And stop bitching about him. He never think anything like that and he never did anything wrong. He dont deserve such comments from you all.

This is just one bitching. I believe there are many more out there, with the power of your mind and how "well" you people speak.

My boy is forgiving but I'm not. I will never forget too.

I'm just saying out whatever I have in mind. It has nothing to do with my guy. If you wana bitch, I'll be your target and not my guy. I love my boy too much to let any of you hurt him.

I'm pissed off!

2004-10-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

Oh man... wanted to have a happy entry, but nah.. ends up it's one that filled with anger.

First of all, I was crying juz now. Nah.. dun get the wrong idea. Zw and I are doing fine. I just got kicked out from a band. Although I've only jammed with them twice... but still.. a band to me is like a boyfriend. And yes, tears rolled down the moment I got the news. It's as heartbreaking as quarrels between me and zw. And I just wana clarify that I'm not that busy. Just that I cant make it last jam coz I was being notified too last min. And as I thought one of the member was still having exams and unsure when's the next jam, I agreed to work on tat particular Saturday and it was too last min, hence cant find any replacement.

Whatever. It's really heartbroken to see the sentence "we prefer the band as 4 person". I felt the same way as if my bf was telling me "I prefer to be single."

To me, band is very important. I enjoyed playing in band and treasured every single opportunity to be in a band nowadays. This is part of my goals in life. And that's why, I'm really upset about it.

Luckily, all these ups and down moments.... zw is still there to go thru with me... =) *feel so loved*

And next, I'm angry. I hate people whom misunderstood my dude. I was there when the so-call incident took place. And only today, then I went to surf around and read about it. Freak. I hate people to misunderstand and without knowing the truth, accusing my guy and said mean things about him. And HELLO, he's ATTACHED TOO!

Yes. I'm angry. Coz I know what's going on and only that person dunoe what's going and accused my innocent boy. And guess what? Some bitching was going on about my innocent boy when he did nothing wrong at the start. It was juz a plain misunderstand but some people juz think too highly of him/herself [quoting from that person], and spoiled the friendship.

I'm telling you people out there. With me around, I wont allow any of you to hurt my guy in any way. You people wana bitch, go ahead. But dont ever let me know of it.

Yes, I'm angry. Angry with myself as I was blinded and think that all of you are innocent and will for sure wake up one day and be back who you are.

I love my deary alot and he loves me alot. Hence, I wont let any of you to hurt him.

Weet~ I'm back!

2004-10-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. had a pretty bad weekend.. my email acc was hacked and lots of stuffz were gone... such as my friendster, blog, livejournal..etc. Anyway, I've re-reg my blogger and opened a new acc in friendster and livejournal.

Errmm.... at deary's place now.. update abit since he's busy preparing to report to station. Yup... He's gona be doing night shift this coming 2 days and I shall be guai guai and dont anyhow think. I must really learn to control my temper more before zw's blood reach the boiling point. Hehe~

Yup... my life is really filled up with him. But of coz, still got other stuffz like my very own duty in life and goals too~

And... yup, I'm gona say this here. I'll really work hard and shall make it come true that I'm really gona control and love my deary! Yup~ I'll work hard so that what we've said about our future will come true. It's all in the mind. So, I'll control and tada~ hehehe..

Deary gona go soon and I'm going home... will update more later.. but before I end...
guys.. sorry for holding up zw this afternoon... I was pretty much full of nonsense. Sorry.. wo zhi cuo le. dui bu qi...

and...

Deary~~ sorry... hehe... muackz!